Daniel fast... it's hard

I dint expect 'Daniel fast' to be this hard... haha. ytd, dear ris, glor and vin was like eating deep fried yummy-looking chicken wing right in front of me, and cheesecake too! =(
then at night, dad wanna have kinda of a special easter sunday dinner celebration, and was cooking/buying up good food. boy was i tempted! xp

and today, i'm starting to seem to see why, if it's really kinda God calling me to it, God may be calling me on this 'Daniel fast'. Looking at it ytd, this week seems to be going to be an "interesting" week (meaning of the inverted commas, go use your GP compre skills to infer..)... can feel that lotsa things are gonna come, which has nothing to do with my decision of having this 'Daniel fast' this week. From doing/deciding to do it for fun, i now seem to see a little play of God's hands at work.

Just now was torturous. i'm so used to coming home after school, esp when my heart seems heavy, tired, burdened, or just shallowing in the mud, to grab a snack, a sweet yummy snack to quench my mood. Seems that i'm actually quite reliant on food to perk my mood up a bit, resulting me to really be snacking a huge amount should i come back home anything but happy, which does not often seem to be very seldom. XD and just now coming home, i was aching for a snack! chicken wings in front of me, peanut butter often catching my eyes, a desire to grab a chocolate... hmm.... it was toturous. in the end i settled for plain ole bread. which at least got rid some of the hungryness, though the craving still lies, esp when i remember there's only veg and rice for me tonight. =(

but somehow i feel that God planned and probably prompted at such a time as this becoz He sees this week aint gonna be smooth-sailing, and i'm guessing He wants to teach me a different set of emotional reliance this round. Not emotional reliance on food, where i feed my cravings and gluttony to appease my emotions... but maybe, reliance on Him, or something.

well, this 'Daniel fast' aint gonna be easy, but i'm gonna persevere and rely on God.
Wish me all the best! =D