Ignite 4 Him!

lonely. wants attention. in need for a support system. alone. wants attention. wants a reassurring hug. wants a comforting cuddle. wants you.
only pple i can really really be comfortable and myself with is... my cell. seems like there is hardly anyone else. it's hard to live by seeing pple's face and keep adapting, knowing that there is less acceptance of who i really am. seemingly only in church then i wont be condemned. sigh. yet, there are much expectations of me there, to be one of strong character, able to support.

are pple so used to me supporting them that they cant see that i'm needing support and give me just that? i miss sec sch support system, both from peers and teachers. the "selfish-period" theory just DOESNT work. it gets even more discouraging and tiring actually. sigh. crazy fren's sch teachers who said that. -.-"

if i was there for you, would you be here for me now when i need you the most?

but what can i expect? i even downgraded myself such that i am unworthy of expecting to receiving anything from pple. It's not becoz of anyone in particular, but just how i look at myself, unworthy of a true friend.

i'm going to sleep. i like blogging things out, not secretly, yet in peace knowing that the chance of anyone seeing this is near zero, giving me the freedom to express myself without worrying of pple thinking/criticising me of my motives for posting what i post. for how can there be a motive for posting anything that pple arent going to read?? haha.

good night.