havent been updating here, becoz things have been rather busy everyday with drama night rehearsals and stuffs, and trying to finish urgent homework in time whilst getting sleep. zzzz.... xp haha. well, but really thank God. things have been great here. the week dint turn out as badly as i have expected. Rather, it has been real good so far. My worries of certain friendships, and the awkwardness i had initially was overcome. Things worked out as i trusted God. Awkwardness often filled me on monday and tuesday, but i'm glad that by wed, things btw me and a few pple have been resolved, and it felt so much better to know that my that one instance of folly on saturday dint killed the friendships involved. Rehearsals for me were good. Though i admit that it got me worried when somehow after friday's incident and the follow-up on sat, i cant seem to get into character like i have been doing all these while. i have a feeling i have a phobia of 'kristen'... scared of her liao. but thank God, they think it's still okay, and somehow they can still sense the emotions without me feeling like i'm very very in character such that i'm feeling the emotions so strongly for myself.
yup yup. i wont lie to say that everything has been totally, one hundred percent fine, but it's like 95%?? =D i mean with the tiredness, and sometimes irritated with AVA/DRAMA pple becoz i'm always somewhere thrown in-between, sometimes feeling unappreciated, sometimes feeling alone and lonely esp when everyone else is much busier & i'm more free (yar lah jason) since i dont need make-up nor changing into costume, and struggling esp to finish my history SBQ... yah. the week thus far hasnt been totally perfect, but it was never ought to be perfect, becoz it can never be. haha. impossible. but i thank God these moments were short-lived and seldom. They do not happen often, and i quickly surrendered them to God, and not dwell and internalise, expanding it, but just having the simple child-like faith. =D
yup. eyes closing and i need my rest... it's gonna be a loong and busy day! Nites.
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