HALLELUJAH!! Mid-yrs is over, and i survived and persevered till the very end!!! yippeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! haha. really thank you all who prayed for me, encouraged me and supported me through this period of time. Sure was a tough period with intensive studying for a month and a half (first time so sooo intensive, being motivated and pushed by production commitment. haha), as well as struggling with compressing post production withdrawal (which thank God was quite successful), as well as struggle with emotions that threatened my studies when a reminder of friendship issues that needed to be settled dropped on my lap in the midst of mid-yrs.
Thank you dear friends for the prayer, the encouragement, the support, and the fun time of fellowship when I'm with you all during this period. I'm really grateful for all these which helped me survived and persevere through till the end.
Anyways, ahh.. the miracle... i MUST share this. I've been saying for the past 2-3 weeks i really need a miracle for production week and these two exam weeks. Well, when you say that and you pray that, God definitely hears. It's a miracle for me to have survived all the way, but today was a miracle itself, and not just any miracle... but a promised one!
Yesterday's paper was morning paper, and by 11am was back home already. Supposed to take a short break before studying for today's hist paper, which was in the afternoon. But yesterday, simply could not study, so i thought i just needed a longer break. Late afternoon, forced myself sit down and start. Tried, but couldnt. Got a little worried, left the table and spoke to God, asking for help, kept feeling like i should just rest and relaxed. And somehow an inner voice said, "Go. Enjoy and relax. Trust me for I'll help you. I'll give you a miracle."
And i really needed one, becoz int hist was a subj i totally didnt touch at all throughout the entire hols and even up till today. xp in the end, i did not study at all the entire ytd after the paper. Well, i awoke earlier today to start studying, and as I was studying, i just become panicky here and there, wanting to give up, feeling as if I just CANT be prepared in time. But somehow there's this feeling deep down, which initially i keep doubting it's my own desire and likelihood not from God, that God was telling me He'll provide a miracle. He's going to do a miracle for me today.
and HALLELUJAH!!! Indeed He is the God of Miracles! I just dint felt ready, and throughout the mid-yrs, this was my most worrisome paper. But a miracle happened. Worried I wont be able to do the essays as out of 3 topics, i only really went thru Cold War, and dint even have time to memorise anything. The other 2 i only briefly glanced through certain parts of that topic, and felt like i wouldnt be able to remember anything. Anyways, the miracle was i could roughly do 3 essay Qns, which is the requirement - 3Qns out of 5Qns given, and not only that... though unsure, I could come out with 4 points each = 4 para, found time to write them down as well as a more or less good proper conclusion for all my Essays!!!! Whhheeeeeeeeeeeeee.. haha. First time in my life, becoz usually i have time management prob, as well as not sure what to write for essay if i dint really study in-depth. That's a miracle! I COULD WRITE 3 WHOLE ESSAYS (not including SBQ) WITH 4 CONTENT PARA WITHIN THE TIME LIMIT!!!! HALLELUJAH!!!!!
It may not seem much to others, but i know that that's a miracle for me! At least in this current situation i'm in. It's not that if I dont study I can pray and God will deliver me to be able to do all the questions in the exam (which He can but that's not the intention and should never be becoz it wont work that way), but I believe it's when you do the possible and trust God with the impossible. Yes, i could and should have studied yesterday and not just oh, rely on God and not study... but i guess God knew I really really needed the break, and relaxation, the mental rest... and it was really lots of faith this morning to trust God and His constant reminder that He's going to do a miracle for me, which in the end, at the end of the paper I realised it was so. I dont know what to expect of the miracle initially, and i just left it to God, and wow. I am amazed. I dont know whether I'll score well for this paper, becoz i kinda felt the argument and all was really weak. But to be able to come out with 4 content para, and write them with a proper conclusion for ALL my essays... esp when i studied little for this, although i really wanted to study and tried ytd but just couldnt... it's a MIRACLE for me!
yup. So... today after hist... i went ... to watch ICE AGE 3!!!! 3D. superb cool!!! superb good!!! superb funny!!! haha. love it! enjoyed watching wif my class gals! yup. the 7 of us. it's like finally, i'm called on a movie date. :) "PINEAPPLE! POMEGRANATE!.. oh, what's that word again... PEACHES!"
"I see Sid"
"Roger"
"Who's that? I say I see Sid"
"Roger"
"Well, who cares about Roger? Can we rescue Sid first then come back for Roger?"
*rofl!* =D
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