Sad that they let go of me

It's one thing letting go of them. It's another thing to feel they are also letting go of me. It's sad to realize that they are letting go of me, though at the same time I may be letting go of them. What am I saying? Sighs. It's just the thought that has always been nagging here and there that perhaps, perhaps they were being too nice and perhaps we were close only becoz I was holding on. If that's the case, perhaps I should let go. Perhaps I was taking too much initiative. So I stopped. I let them go by not taking initiative, which doesn't mean I wouldn't respond to them. But apparently, as I let go of them, they let go of me too. I guess perhaps I was really being extra in that friendship, and perhaps it was not meant to be. After a triad is not really the best number as research shows. I shouldn't have stayed so long as a third party. Now I know. I'm sorry for not leaving earlier. Thanks for the friendship you have extended to me. You're great people. May the Lord continue to watch over you and bless your friendship as I continue to wander life searching and waiting and just living by.

At least Lord, You've never let go of me. Thank you.