Missing PHS... old memories...

I miss PHS tremondously... i miss the school building, the school chapel, the library, the classrooms, the staff room, the teachers, my juniors, my seniors, familiar faces that will greet you with a smile & occassionally a word of encouragement, the morning devotions, the picnic tables, my 'venice', the canteen tables where we can place our feet on the bar beneath the table...

even in jc, i'm so not used to not having that bar underneath my table... it just feels so uncomfortable...

i miss especially the friendly familiar faces I see as I wander, linger, work, study, play in PHS... wherever i go, i'll meet some familiar faces which will smile at me... Some of these familiar faces will pause and ask my well-being, some encouraging me, some putting a smile on my face... unlike where i am now, greeted by unfamiliar and not so friendly faces, feeling all out and alone, even in my OG i feel uncomfortable, unsettled, as if i dont belong there, i cant fit in, the people there dont really like me... although i dont think that's really very true... but there may be some truths to it.

I miss my 'venice' lots... a place where i can 散散心, a place where i usually go when i'm feeling down, unhappy, frustrated, moody, tired, alone, desperate, calling out to God, pouring all my troubles and feelings and emotions and situaions in God, crying out in desperate... a place or solitude and reflection and relaxation...
Now, there's no where else for me to go... home is too crowded by my family, with no place to be still and find solitude... jc mii still NOT use to... church, too many people around.

Past 3-5days, had been looking through/sorting out photos i have taken... in my PHS years, pics of Honours Night07, Mt Ophir06, Service Learning Proj06, Drill Competition07, 4Grace Zoo Outing07, Graduation Service/Night07... bringing back fond memories... oh how i wished we can replay sec school life again! I'm missing the good old days...

Looking at Lucky's photos also reminded me of him... the fun, funny, exciting times we had together; the 'hide-and-seek' game, playing frisbee, treating him with treats every now and then...

sometimes when something is gone... then you'll learn to appreciate it better, though sometimes it's just to late.

Lord, thank you for giving me all these good times and memories... thank you for such great blessings... even if i miss them... i still treasure them...