The magic that used to be between us seems to be fading off. Is this an indication that I should let go of you and move on?
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Someone yesterday asked me: "If i give you 3 wishes, what would you wish for?"
I thought hard... i thought long... i dont want more wishes, becoz i cant even think about one to wish for...
1min later... "I wish that people around me will have real joy and love in their lives"
2min later... "I wish for a best friend here on earth"
4min later... "I wish things were not so complicated"
...................... silence at the other side .......................
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Why are things so complicated? or is it just me... ... ... ...
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I feel like letting go. I feel like running away. I feel like giving up. I want to lock up those doors of my heart.
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Watched finish 'Remember the Titans' yesterday during CT period. One of the best movie I ever saw. a reflection: "Sometimes when you know you tried your best. That's enough."
If they can do it why not I? If they're willing to risk all, give up things close to their heart to just keep trying for what they believe and know is right, why am i so ready to give up? Racial tensions so strong; families, girlfriend, school friends forsake them, do not understand them; fame reached out to them... yet they did not give up. they persisted. despite their difficulties, their challenges, threats to endanger the lives of their loved ones, a very fatal accident, differences and disagreements... they pressed on, TOGETHER. They did not give up. They did not let go. They won.
If despite all the risks and sacrifices they have to make, they still did not give up... who am I to give up and give in to my fears, to my self-pity...
If they can try, I should try too. At least i wont have any regrets. At least i know i've tried. But man! it's just so hard... sigh...
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Maybe things just werent meant to be, between us, you and me.
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"Yeah. I hope you boys have learned as much from me this year as I've learned from you. You've taught this city how to trust the soul of a man rather than the look of him. And I guess it's about time I joined the club." by Coach Yoast
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Are you also another seasonal friend? Is this how things work out in my life?
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Coach Boone: What are you?
Team: Mobile, agile, hostile!
Coach Boone: What is pain?
Team: French bread!
Coach Boone: What is fatigue?
Team: Army clothes!
Coach Boone: Will you ever quit?
Team: No! We want some mo', we want some mo', we want some mo'!
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Friends come, friends go. Am i going to let all of them slip by me time again and again? shouldn't i be used to it by now?
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"This is no democracy. This is a dictatorship. I am the law. If you survive camp, you will be on the team. If you survive." by Coach Boone
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No, I cannot give up. I shouldnt give up. I should press on.
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"So what we won a few games. And y'll fools think that's something? Man, that aint nothing y'll. And you know what else, we aint nothing either. Yea, we came together in camp. Cool. But then we're right back here and the world tells us they don't want us to be together. We fall apart like we aint a damn bit of nothing man. And y'll think we won something? Man, we aint won nothing y'll. Nothing." by Blue Stanton
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Why can i do? what should i do? maybe i'm not trying hard enough? what more can i do?
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"People say that it can't work, black and white. Here, we make it work every day. We still have our disagreements, of course, but before we reach for hate, always, always, we remember the Titans." by Sheryl
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I do not want a repeat of last year again. Once is enough. I do not ever want to really run and hide away from God again.
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"It's all right. We're in a fight. You boys are doing all that you can do. Anybody can see that. Win or lose... We gonna walk out of this stadium tonight with our heads held high. Do your best. That's all anybody can ask for." by Coach Boone
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Am i trying too hard? Should i just lie back and stop trying and let life just run by itself?
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"Sometimes life is hard for no reason at all." by Carol Boone
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Why do I seem to be taking my friends for granted again? When can i stop doubting my friends, my friendships with others, and most importantly myself?
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"Well, you're the captain. You make a decision, but you support your decision." by Coach Boone
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I need to stop reading your blogs, stop thinking too much and stop allowing my heart to grow heavy. i love you my dear friends. sigh.
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茫茫人海 虽然寂寞
他爱能 温暖一切冷漠
慢慢长夜 陪你走过
他爱你 伴你一生之久
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